One of those days...

I am currently listening to the Goo Goo Dolls- Iris. Yeah that pretty much defines my day right there. It usually happens when you think you finally found someone whose worth telling your secrets too, and they run away. It's a dissapointment.

Well actually my day was fantastic. ISH. Last night I slept over Bridgets house..haha we did the dumb things that girls do at sleepovers, and I woke up early to go to the dentist with my mom. It was all good. 11:30 appointment turned into a 12:30 one but thats ok I guess? And I read this article in PEOPLE mag. and I honestly found it to be the most memorizing event of my summer. Honestly I forget the boys name from the article even though I promised I would remeber because it was like I said it completly facinated me. His last name, thank god it just popped into my head!, was Neighbors. His mother was 18 when she was murdered, when he was just a baby. Now being 15, he's trying to slove the case that still hasnt been solved. His mother was shot and thrown in a creek with chains and a cinderblock tied to her. I know your all probably thinking what the hell does that have to do with your blog? And it dosnt..but I cant get his moms face out of my mind. The picture of her was beautiful. She was younge, had dark features...and she had a life to live far beyond that of what she had. Its honestly tearing me apart...how can the police just give up on a case like that? Even though I do remeber it saying something about no motive...what does that matter? Cant you find out who killed her?

I guess the point is...This kids love for his mom is stronger and more vibrant than I think most people will ever know. He didnt even know her and yet he sees it as his duty to find out what really happened...I wish I had courage like that kid does haha..I wish everyone did. Thats the heart and spirit everyones missing these days...

So yeah. I've been obsessing over that all day. Had to get it out. The kids got a facebook page and everything for it. He's got some real heart, if you ask me. I'll try to find it and post a link to show you guys. A little dreary but thats life, eh?

Ok so after the dentist I show up at my house and my brothers are like "OHMMMGGGG! COME HERE! LOOK OUTSIDE!" and I'm all "Ok? Whatever." And I look outside and on my back porch is a golden lab.

:O AHHHHHHHHHHHH!
yeah turns out it was my neighbors and I couldnt keep it like people do on tv shows.

Then I realize me and J havnt talked in like 5 days. OOOPPPPS! Yeah well actually we talked yesterday..i said something as a joke..he didnt find it funny...he legit will not answer the god damn phone. I tried everything...I poured my heart out for this kid and he just will not budge. UGH SO ANNOYING. So thats prolly over....i f-ed up...again?


Now im just rambling about random stuff. ill post something real in a minute haha i need to regroup.